Yesterday it was before lunch when Ms.M.( my SOM batchmate-an office working mom too. ) and I were talking over the phone. As we go along the chitchat I noticed that It wasn't just twice we said " Ay nakoh, ganun siguro talaga pag tumatanda na." hehe kasi we are now in the stage of being contented in a sense na we seldom go out with friends having gimik or things like that na more on family na talaga. The weekdays routine is as in from office diretso na sa bahay at magtututor pa sa estudyante namin. Weekend naman usually pag Sunday is a family day of course. But we can't compare the feeling of serving our family. Though I must say that I was a little bit bored before. Take note that was BEFORE. Yun nga lang there are some na namimisinterpret ako. Anyway, bahala sila hehe
My point is that was it really because we're getting older now kaya ba we can live with that lifestyle.. Was it right for us to say that Ay nakoh, ganun talaga pag tumatanda na... Well, I think the feeling of contentment is not a matter of age, not a matter of status in life but a matter of attitude how to accept and appreciate how things goes around. I know, words lang namin un.
Well uwian na naman...iniintay nako ng mga officemates ko sa washroom.
Posted at 10:33 am by
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Simple thought for year 2006
As I enter the new year to reach for and another year with hopes, desires and resolutions ah e ewan ko lang hehe but being a positive one ika nga e I can make it! Avoid or even trash the negative thoughts ever............! (take it from a perfect friend-thank you friend!)
I've some thoughts to share pa but Gosh!!! It's time for me to go....e uwian na mahirap sumakay ng fx dito sa Ortigas papuntang Pasig.
Posted at 03:38 pm by
SIMPLY_JEN
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I talked. She listended. I cried, and she cried with me. I'm sure of that even if it used to be over the phone. She could get across over our same or different emotions but always understand to reach each other. We used to share the thoughts of being a working mom, and I admired her so much for having such good traits and one of those I'd really like most is her being a broadminded one. She never purposely in detailed told me how God's grace work into her life but I considered that every time she told me how wonderful her kids are and the way she handles things over the trials and discomfort situations.
I told her things that bothered me most which I think a burden. A burden in my soul which I was despaired of. I know only myself could renounced it and nobody can be blame maybe simply because I don't know how to distinguish the trick of life. Several times I tried to make it over but I failed. I was just only in the beginning but after a while I can't help myself. Good thing is that I never get tired of loosing hope that one day I could get over this burden.
For how many months I did not receive HIM in the communion. I was quite at loss with the feeling of emptiness. But I didn't want to reconcile again without assurance that it wouldn't be repeated again. Since, it was included not just once in my previous reconciliation.
One Thursday evening, I was on my way home from office. I was tired actually then but since my husband won't fetch me at the office that time I went to our cathedral at downtown without a decisive plan to had a confession. Maybe God missed me too because on that very moment we reconciled. Honestly, after a couple of days I was about to be in that burden again but I believe I stay in his grace to the point that there was a friend who taught me how to be committed totally to HIM. Since then, I even renounced that burden though I'm aware that the enemy won't surrender that easily nor give up either to make me fall again but I know and I do believe that HE won't also surrender and give up to send love and graces to remind me always as I ASKED TO BE FORGIVEN AND COMMITTED TO STRUGGLE TO LIVE AS FAITHFULLY AS POSSIBLE.
Posted at 01:23 pm by
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It wasn't the usual conversation that I've been solely chatting with a closest chum or a confidant. It was a good feeling to know, to share & to listen up to no limitation topics you want to talk about. Until we talked along re what the real beauty is ( Huh, ordinaryong topic no? sa dami ng pag uusapan yun pa..) which recently mingling in my thoughts just this morning on my way going to office. Wew! I never thought that we could go farther up to the deepest point of views on this. ( Kanya kanyang kuro-kuro na totoo naman syempre) A simple definition that tackles the character of ones person.
Since before, what captivates me most is the physical attraction and even my first impression was always based on how does she/he look. Questions like maganda ba sya? Guwapo ba sya? As if I used to pre empt the personality. Well, not because I'm pretty enough to be like that but even those who are not, acting that way right? Honestly, I never dare to put in my mind that I'm beautiful even there are some who keep on telling me but I don't want naman to hear that I'm not. I'd rather be described as "simple". Whatever! For sure, I'm not the only one or even most people like that.
I used to hear the saying, " beauty is in the eye of the beholder". Yah! Oo naman depende naman yan sa tumitingin. But I never done to signify what this really means. Alam mo yung as if napakasimple lang ng tema but if you come to realize, it is so fascinating to think of or to put in our mind that one person would be an attractive not only because of physical attraction but the inside beauty that manifests. Alam mo yung may wisdom or being sensible, matured enough, responsible, kind hearted, being humble and many more virtues or qualities by which eyes can't see but it is not necessarily a person should have those of course just to have real beauty ika nga. Before kasi I really wonder whenever I see good looking person but the partner is not so but still very proud and love so much. And I know couples like that....at the back of my mind, questions hanging around ( pilya no? )
But finally, the puzzle ended. The heartfelt conversation is the extension of my realization stating the fact that real beauty could be the real love too. And now, I'll never wonder anymore but internally I know within what beyond beauty in real now.
I thank my friend so much for that sensible talks who once pinched my consciousness.
Posted at 02:25 pm by
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